The Night I Cried

I cried the hardest I’ve ever cried Saturday night, outright.  Drunk, tired or rather exhausted, and distraught, I felt my heart ache.  It’s really strange, as younger gay men, how much we discern certain aspects of our livelihoods.  I’ve never had to deal with what I had to last Saturday.  And with all the talk, [...]

Shedding my Cocoon

So I feel like I’m totally getting better at not coming off as such an arrogant asshole. 

I know, from that you read her normally, you would think that I’d be this totally approachable person, but this is definitely not the case.  Many, many people have slipped past my “friend” radar, because I apparently give [...]

I’m Hung Up

The other day, I was working diligently at my desk the other day.  My IPOD just shuffling away, and myself jamming out.  Its a well known fact here in the office that if the right song hits at the right moment, I will dance in my chair.  But this particular post isn’t about my seated [...]

Quite Possibly the most perfect Christmas Could Ever…

Yea, I bawled.  Mark, his family and I celebrated Christmas here two days early for a multitude of reasons.  I wont be here, due to the demands of family.  Which I dont mind, I need to spend time with them too, Christmas is about family and love in the end.  Mark leaves for South Carolina [...]

My Long Awaited Return (I suppose)

So, yea. I know, Ive been absent for quite a while. Nearly 2 months since my last post. I feel like I’ve let some people down, in a way. Yet the reasons are there why I haven’t been writing. And not to mention, a few drastic movements in my life.
-Since [...]

Young, Immature, and Lesbian?

I had a thought last night, a revelation. Call it an epiphany. Being someone who constantly likes to question his surroundings and peer into anything that could have a more complex meaning, it kind of surprised me that this particular thought took so long before fruition.
So I suppose I’ll play out last night [...]

It’s not like checking a box on an application

I’ve come to the realization in the past few weeks or so, that there are some people in my life, who apparently dont consider my sexuality “for real”. In the sense that I’ve heard on more than one occasion from a select few of my friends, that they think I’ll be straight again.
….I’m Serious.
And [...]

Begin Rant

I want to feel normal. I want to be accepted.
I’ve become sickenly frustrated with the majority of the Jacksonville population the past couple of days, and its desparingly not going to improve at all, any time soon.
I spent the past four days with Mark, doing the amiable thingst that couples do, meeting me for [...]

I Want Want Wanna Be In Love, For Real

I have experienced one of the best weekends of my life, which may not fit the diagram of an average weekend, but the entire time felt like a vacation, sorely needed, yet drastically joyful.
I met someone, someone amazingly fantastic. Someone who makes me smile. A guy who seems to know me so [...]

Maybe There Is More To Life

The course of the last four or five days have left me in a relative stupor. I’m so amazed that life can take that simple left hook and suddenly everything can seem so much more positive and alive. Suddenly I cant stop smiling. And people notice. Aggrivating to a degree, [...]