Back Again I Suppose

I always find blogging for the first time in months to be such an odd experience.  I feel like I’m not familiar enough with the blog to be in a talkative post mood yet I hate that I always feel like I am just penning another “update” set. 
 I actually am very upset with how I [...]

Some Explanations

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This week has been a drastic series of ups and downs for me. For some reason, I can’t get things to settle down. It’s quite a suspensful time right now, what with the garbage school has been putting me through, or at least the process of getting my financial aid approved. However, [...]

Begin Rant

I want to feel normal. I want to be accepted.
I’ve become sickenly frustrated with the majority of the Jacksonville population the past couple of days, and its desparingly not going to improve at all, any time soon.
I spent the past four days with Mark, doing the amiable thingst that couples do, meeting me for [...]

Letting Down Those Walls

Today, for nearly three hours I was verging on tears. For the first time in nearly six years, the wieght of everything that I encounter had finally taken it’s toll, and I nearly broke down. Thats huge for me, and step in a positive direction.
This lets me know, that I’m finally letting my [...]

Maybe There Is More To Life

The course of the last four or five days have left me in a relative stupor. I’m so amazed that life can take that simple left hook and suddenly everything can seem so much more positive and alive. Suddenly I cant stop smiling. And people notice. Aggrivating to a degree, [...]

Oh so close, yet so far

I experienced one of those rare blogging moments where nearly every sentence you create is blog worthy substance and your thoughts are very cohesive and whatever ponderings cross your mind sound great, containing just enough wit and complexity while not sounding overly verbose or overexaggerative (note the trite irony). That window apparently closed about [...]